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Leese  

Just checking in

Mar 5, 2012
Just checking in and no word from anyone. :( Hope everyone is doing alright and that their personal challenges are working out.

Love and light,
Lisa
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Leese   in reply to Leese   on

Prayers and strength needed

Feb 10, 2012
I am tired and worn out. My son is in a place I can't seem to get into. He's not doing well at all dealing with his father's impending death and it's to the point that I wish all of this would just end. Peace for his father, free of all pain. For Jacob the start of closure and working through grief. For me, a very long road and the reality that I am truly my children's only parent left. All of this is blowing my mind and alot to deal with for me. When does this get better? Pictures of my children who are affected by their father's illness.

Confused and sad,
Lisa
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Feb 5, 2012
Thank you so much for your offer of prayers for my son Jacob and I. The power of prayer is strong and hopefully god will hear all the voices asking for help for Jacob and I.

Love and light,

Lisa
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Leese   in reply to Leese   on

Prayers and strength needed

Feb 5, 2012

 I wasn't sure how to add additional pictures but I have that under control :)  The picture is of me taken in later 2011 at home. broken heart

 

Blessings to each of you,

Lisa

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Leese  

Prayers and strength needed

Feb 5, 2012
Homework, homework, homework! What on earth was I thinking when I returned to school in the middle of this storm? I am home schooling Jacob, dealing with the impending loss of his dad and all the while trying to figure out how to return to Michigan where I think he will flourish and return to the boy that I know. It breaks my heart to see him in so much internal pain. I have to keep reminding myself that I am the closest person to him so I am the safety net. I know he loves me but I get the cruddy end of the stick regarding his father's cancer, Jacob's grief and the defiance that has come with it.

All I know to do is to be there whenever he needs me, tolerate some of his defiance but know when to put a kabash on ill behavior when appropriate but most of all put all my worries into god's hands and let it go.

I know that god is a fair and just god. He does not lay more on your shoulders than one can handle. He hears my prayers and acts in kind to what is his divine will. Still I just don't see why my son is the one to bear such a burden? There has to be an answer somewhere but I haven't come across it yet.

Pray, pray, pray for Jacob and ask for strength to help him through all of this. Pray that I have the wisdom and strength to carry on and meet my responsibilties to Jacob and all other things in my life. Please guide us to theother side of this nightmare and bring peace to my son most of all. Amen
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Feb 4, 2012
 in response to Honestjim...   Start with personal forgiveness. We all make mistakes and sometimes things spiral out of control. Ask God for forgiveness and from this day forward live your life right and make good choices from today forward.

Blessings as this journey begins.

Lisa
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Feb 4, 2012
 in response to bookworm2011...   Hey Char,
Thank you for the letter of encouragement. I truly need that more than you know. My son is so angry and I am at a loss as to what to do to help him. I reassure him every moment that I can, I make sure we spend snuggle time at night if he wants too. I can't tell you how many mornings I have found him on my bed, his face stained with tears. He might be twelve but he still a child, the youngest of five children who are not being supportive. They are scattered around the country so they don't see it real and personal. *sigh*

I've got three papers to write by tonight at eleven PST and I hope I can get them done. I went to school this quarter and I am beginning to wonder if I bit off more tan I should have.

Is it possible that maybe you can write to those groups for me? I am emotionally drained and just don't know what else to say. There is a picture of Jacob and I on aidepage but they are individuals. I can take one of us together if necessar though.

Being a mom really bites at times. Sitting here with my nose burning, holding back tears as Jacob is in the bathroom and will be out here next. I have asked god for his divine wisdom and strength so much I don't even know if he hears my pleas at all anymore. I am just so drained. Geez, I sound like I am having a pity party but in reality I think I am just having a meltdown.

Well Char, I am going to close for now. I am sorry I dumped on you. You seem like such a kind, hearted woman with a keen understanding and words of wisdom as well.

Love and light,
Lisa
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Leese  

Motivational words for anyone who reads this post. Love and light, Lisa

Feb 3, 2012
Before I go to bed for the night I just wanted to offer kind words to anyone who might need to hear them tonight. I found the motivation words while surfing tonight and thought they were not only wise but also heartfelt. Goodnight and god bless each of you!

"Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power." (The Power Principle, 2012)

Reference

The Power of Principle, http://www.quoteland.com/topic/Motivational-Quotes/232/?pg=3, Retrieved February 3, 2012.
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Feb 3, 2012
 in response to bookworm2011...   

frownOhhh this site frustrates me so much! I wrote you a message and it dropped when I went to post. Things are bleak but life is still for the living right? My son is not doing well and I keep putting the big smile on my face encouraging him that we will be alright. It is so hard to give him those words of comfort when I truly don't know if life is really going to be alright. All my faith is in god's arms and I am patiently waiting for some sort of answer from my god. I pray, I hope, I pray and I listen. If you hear of another resource that I might try please let me know. I am saving all the money I can and that is why my projected date of move is set off in the future. I realize that I cannot save all that I need though. We are not eating out, buying only what we must have and have cut our cable to nothing but kept the internet as both my son and I go to school online so it is a necessity. Thank you again for the strong and encouraging words. Love and light, Lisa Ohhh this site frustrates me so much! I wrote you a message and it dropped when I went to post. Things are bleak but life is still for the living right? My son is not doing well and I keep putting the big smile on my face encouraging him that we will be alright. It is so hard to give him those words of comfort when I truly don't know if life is really going to be alright. All my faith is in god's arms and I am patiently waiting for some sort of answer from my god. I pray, I hope, I pray and I listen. If you hear of another resource that I might try please let me know. I am saving all the money I can and that is why my projected date of move is set off in the future. I realize that I cannot save all that I need though. We are not eating out, buying only what we must have and have cut our cable to nothing but kept the internet as both my son and I go to school online so it is a necessity. Thank you again for the strong and encouraging words. Love and light, Lisa

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Leese  

Desperate Son and Mom Need Your Help PLEASE!

Feb 3, 2012
Things have turned to the bleak side I'm afraid. Money is just not there to pay the bills and no replies to my outreach for help from strangers. I realize my son and I may not look like we are destitute but soap and water do an amazing thing even when one is poor.

I don't know what else to say or do but to ask for help once again. I am not one to go off with a half baked plan. Yet, I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels in hope that someone will be generous to my son and I.

Is it because my status is student? I'm going to school so I can become a tax paying, self-sufficient woman once again. Raising five children put me in and out of the job market for quite some time and it just wasn't my turn yet. Now, with my leg injury I need to retrain.

PLEASE someone help us! Even five dollars is a start. Maybe if someone donates something the fires will burn and generate more money so that we can move. Again, PLEASE HELP US!

Sorry about the capital letters but I don't know how else to get someone to see us and my pleas for help.

Love and light,
Lisa
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 31, 2012
 in response to daisydu...   Thank you and for your word wisdom.Much appreciated!
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 30, 2012
Well I have things pared down to the necessities I cannot leave behind. No furniture, articles needed to live only. I am still holding onto the thought that this will happen and working my tail off to make it come true. Today we look for neceassary documents required by the housing department in Michigan so we can get into subsidized housing sooner than later. I keep telling my son that if he believs and prays that god will answer those prayers. Maybe not the exact way we want him too but they will be answered none the less. Touch cookie for any twelve year old to understand given the fact his dad is dying too and god isn't hearing his prayers regarding his dad. well another day and yet another chance. Love and light to all, lisa
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 29, 2012
 in response to bookworm2011...   Hello Bookworm,
Nort sure if you got m last message or not. I had said that I really enjoyed your honest and relative post to me last week. Thanks for the insight. I'm still working on the move to Mighigan issue. Just seems so discourage and as though the harder I look the harder it becomes.
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 29, 2012
 in response to ekikaseven...   Hello again,
Just wanted to wish you a pleasant Sunday morning before I get all wrapped up in my american lit and english 201 homework. Work is never done whe nit comes to school and my son doing his homework. I am going to re-enter him in traditional school next year as he is going to need the socialization following his fathers death and our move. How is this find you doing? Well I hope. It is vey cold here this morning and I'm so glad I have no plans to go out anywhere.
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Leese  

12 Year Old & Mom need help!!

Jan 28, 2012
We are still in desperate need of help to make my twelve year olds dream come true. I realize that so many people are down on their luck and lots of people are asking for help and their are those who scam. :(

I am asking for help to return my son to Michigan to be by family and friends. Please take a moment to read my post and maybe just maybe someone will open their heart and help us out.

Thanks,
Lisa
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 25, 2012
Life is good today! Kitchen, livingroom and hallway plus laundry are all nice, clean and tidy. My son is mellow so far today and not displaying great stress over his father's health crisis and overall
situation.

I wish all those on here could have a calming moment. It clears the mind and helps the soul tremendously. Love and light to all.....Leese
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 24, 2012
 in response to ekikaseven...   That is so sad that people are abusing the generosity of others. I know I get busy but if someone is generous enough to offer their help unconditionally because they are good people than be gracious and thank them properly. Maybe it's the difference in generations who knows. I can only speak for myself and how I believe and what I know is right and what is wrong. :)
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Leese  

Fast Food Gift Cards Would Be A Blessing Too

Jan 24, 2012
Fast food restaurant gift cards welcomed! Just thought about this portion of our move. It would be great if we could get a hot, quick meal while traveling to Michigan.

I'm not meaning to be pushy or to appear greedy but I have thought a bit more about our needs while relocating and food beyond the cooler came to mind.
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Leese  

Prepaid Gas Cards Needed

Jan 24, 2012
I just thought of something that might work to get us to Michigan. Prepaid gas cards would be great! I don't want to ask for any more than we need to move and know once we are there and settled it will be my turn to offer a random act of kindness for someone else and pay it forward. Thank you
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Leese   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

Jan 24, 2012
 in response to ekikaseven...   I read your post and it came to my mind that sending a card speaks volumes when offering someone moral support. Thank you for the inspiration and the small act of random kindness that you did for someone else. :)
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